Celebrated daddy's Big 60 last month, can't believe how time flies. Really love how everything is right now, wish can freeze time, daddy and mummy never get old, I don't have to go into the very complicated reality and of course staying all sweet and lovey devey with my other half.
Talking about my dad, I never really recall much of his presence when I was young, he's always busy and not around. We live a very tough life when I was young, mom had to bring me to their newly start up office all the time, I do my homework there, take my afternoon naps there and helped out around there all the time. At night, dad would usually go work at Pasar Malam, he sometimes sell durians and sometimes sell fake crocodile t-shirts where he would bring the T-shirts and fake crocodiles tag back for mom to iron on it.
Life was tough, but my parents never let me go through any hard times, I never had to do any housework. Mom always told me that your one and only job in the world is to study and finish your studies. Eventhough we were poor that time, they always try their best to make my life more comfortable and happy. Eventhough we can't afford much of the things we want, mom always makes sure that we have the best education there is, we were taught to speak in English at a very young age, which is one of the things I'm very grateful. Although as comparison with many other people out there, my English is still considered horrible but I've always been proud and happy how I can speak pretty good english at a young age, in primary school always the top English paper scorer, and even the English MCs for many different events. All thanks to my Dad and Mom.
As I grew older and older, although mom and dad never gave me much pressure to excel in school or to do well in every thing. But from all the scarifications and hard work they put in to bring me up, I have create a huge gigantic pressure on myself. I always worked the best I can to not disappoint them. I did very well for my standard six exam where I was offered to the best school in Penang, and one of the top in Malaysia. That 5 years in the school, joining the marching band competing everywhere in Malaysia was definitely the proudest time for my parents. They were always very supportive to go support me when I perform. I made them proud!! and of course that feels AMAZING!!
Sadly, after that great 5 years in secondary school even though with good grades I couldn't make it into public university. I knew that my parents were hoping that I can go in to one of those top public universities in our country. Sadly I let them down, had to go to private college instead and they have to bare my expensive tuition fees. Initially I planned to go Australia after finishing my diploma. At that moment when I told dad Sunway University also offered a very good program where I can complete it here in Malaysia. The excitement in his eyes when he said "YOU CAN STUDY HERE?!!" was how I decided to continue my studies in Malaysia.
Many times when I see my friend's photos travelling all around Australia, Europe and all, I dont feel good at all inside, always felt like a part of my life, a part where I'm suppose to go oversea and study is missing. I completed my degree last year, aimed for first class but ended up with second upper. Grades deteriorate for obvious reasons. All the sudden I just cease to care, dont care about my grades and everything.. just want to get it over with. Although there are times when I feel very sad for not making the decision to go overseas and study, but I never regret my decision to stay in Malaysia.
I get to spend a lot of time with my family and my boyfriend, which is super awesome. I guess no matter how great the experience of studying overseas can be, the time I get to spend with my love ones is priceless and cannot be replaced. I'm very glad that I didn't go oversea especially last year when dad was admitted into the hospital, imagine if I was in Australia or UK I might not be able to come back and stayed that long with him.
Believe it or not, there are no mistakes in life. Everything happens for a purpose. You will not be who are right now if you go back time to undo things you regret. All these years in Sunway have definitely made me a more mature person, and of course realizing what's really important in my life - My Family. After making life decisions, all we have to do is to move forward, accept things and of course make the best of out of it. No one said it's easy, but it will put you in a place wherein you will be who you are. Eventually it will mold you and bring you to a better place.
